One Month

It is true what they say; Babies are made cute so we don't end up murdering them when they scream at 3am. 
But in all honesty, Scarlett hasn't been too bad. So I have to wake up a couple times at night to feed her; I get to sleep in. Even though Scarlett has been an angel, this is still not what I expected motherhood to be like. It's better, and worse at the same time. Luckily the good outweighs the bad. I just miss my sleep. Everyone who knows me well, knows I love my sleep. But when I'm woken up from my deep sleep by the crying, I get to look at the beautiful face that is my daughter and know that I created that little miracle. And in those moments I am indescribably happy.
My husband has been a big help as well. As long as he doesn't have to wake up for work super early, he is ready to lend a hand during the night. Not to mention listening to my banter about how she always cries with me at night and then as soon as he takes her she somehow stops. He just has the magic tough I suppose. He can always calm me and is willing to give me a break when I need it. He is my rock. 
I have a new respect for my mother. I have never heard complain about missing sleep, constant feedings, and the hundreds of messy diapers from when my sisters and I were younger. If it was hard (and I'm sure it wasn't easy) she never expressed it to us. Even though I tell my husband almost everyday that Scarlett will be hearing about the trouble she gives me now, I hope I can muster up the strength to keep my mouth shut and take a page out of my mom's book. 
Being a mom is truly amazing. I feel so blessed to have this bundle of joy in my life and I can't wait to watch her grow. No matter how much I complain or get overwhelmed by all the changes going on in my life with a new baby, I would never wish this time away. 
So to all those mom's out there, congratulations on making it thus far. Being a mom is the toughest, most rewarding job in the world. And even though you may be stressed out, I know you are all thinking the same thing: "I love being a mom and wouldn't trade this for anything." You are all amazing.


“Women are amazing, and I mean that in a very pandering way.
But women are, really! A woman can grow a baby inside their body. And then somehow, a woman can deliver a baby through their body. And then by some miracle, a woman can feed a baby with their body! And when you think of the male contribution to life…it’s kind of embarrassing, really. The guy’s always like, ‘Yeah, well, I helped too! For, like, five seconds. Doing the one thing I think about 24 hours a day.’”

—	Jim Gaffigan (Mr. Universe)

For My Baby Scarlett

As my due date gets closer (5 weeks away), I continue to think about what kind of mom I will be. I hope I'm a good one of course, and I know so many wonderful moms (especially my own), that I have a lot of woman I can look up to and ask questions when I need to. 
And then the other day I saw this woman's blog with a list of all the things she wanted to teach her daughter. So this week my post is all about the things I want to teach my daughter: 

1. You are a wonderful daughter of God. 
2. I love you more than anything.
3. Friends and boys will come and go, but your family is here forever.
4. Modest is hottest.
5. Disneyland is always fun, no matter what Dad says. 
6. Dad will always love you more than any other boy ever will. 
7. Beauty is a state of mind, not a state of body. 
8. The world needs your point of view. 
9. My closet is always open to you. 
10. Food is a joy.
11. No matter how old you get you are and will always be my little baby.
12. No prayer request is ever too small, too silly, or too embarrassing to share.
13. Inevitably we will splinter each other's heart, but we will tweeze them out together. 
14. Staying up late to read a good book is never time wasted. 
15. Sometimes crying is the only thing that will make you feel better and my shoulder is always there for you. 
16. Forgiveness is divine. 
17. Laugh as loud as you can. 
18. Always speak kind words to others. 
19. The saviour is always the best comforter, but I'm a close second. 
20. Saying sorry first is a strength, not a weakness. 
21. Long hair requires a really good conditioner.
22. God made all things beautiful, that includes you. 
23. Always think twice before cutting your hair.
24. When it comes to help with homework, always go to Dad for math. 
25. If you happen to fail at something, don't give up, keep on trying. 
26. There is always a silver lining.
27. I will be your best friend, but being your mother will always come first.
28. Everyone has their own opinions, but your opinion about yourself is the most important. 
29. History is fascinating. 
30. The world is beautiful, so stop and enjoy it every once in awhile. 
31. Have patience with me, I'm doing my best. 
32. Grandma's house is always a good place to run away to, just let me know when you leave first. 
33. Don't be afraid to be silly, crazy, and weird. 
34. Challenge yourself. 
35. Be the change you wish to see in the world. 
36. If it makes you uncomfortable, don't do it, say it, or wear it.
37. The atonement is the best gift you will ever receive. Use it, but don't abuse it.
38. It's never too late to tell the truth. 
39. Bad haircuts grow out eventually, invest in a good hat. 
40. There is no such thing as perfect. 
41. You can always come home. 
42. Nothing could make me love you less. 
43. You are everything I had imagined. 
44. It's okay to be scared. Put on a brave face and keep going anyway. 
45. You are never too old to dress up for Halloween. 
46. If I'm hard on you, it's only because I know your full potential. 
47. I will never expect you to get straight A's as long as you are really trying your hardest. 
48. Don't worry, Daddy will kill all the spiders. 
49. Don't be surprised if your Dad and I are hard on your first date. 
50. Write down your best memories, you don't ever want to forget them.

Another Late Night

It's another late for Jason and me. He is out working so hard to provide for his great family and I am waiting up... There are so many other things I could be doing right now (laundry, dishes, shower, etc.), but as someone who is now 33 weeks pregnant (YAY!), I just don't have the energy to do anything productive. Besides I did all the errands I needed to accomplish today. 

Who knew that you shouldn't brush your teeth right after you throw up? Well, I know it now. My teeth have been whitening around the edges and continue to get white, so I decided to make a dentist appointment a couple weeks ago, and I had that appointment today. Turns out my enamel is coming off my teeth. 
I learned that when you throw up and brush your teeth right after you are actually brushing the acid into your teeth. Who would have thought?! So, as throwing up has been a part of my life since March, just a great perk from being pregnant, I have just been brushing away that stinky, awful taste in my mouth all the while letting that acid just destroy my teeth. 
One day I will be telling my daughter all about how she destroyed my body from within the whom and most likely how she still destroys it from all the stress she causes me. Of course, I kid. 

But the day didn't end on that sour note, thank goodness. I have the worlds best grandma. Since Jason and I have so much cash right now, we share a car. And since he has the job, he gets the car. So, I didn't have a car for my dentist appointment today. My ever loving grandma came and picked me up and took me to my appointment and after that fed me lunch. Did I mention my grandma makes the BEST food? Not to mention every time I go over to her home I always come home with tons of food. She gave me lettuce, canned peaches, apples from their tree, a bag of Chex Mix, and all kinds of other yummy things. Needless to say she treats me well. 
And not that all that wasn't enough for her to do, she took me to Costco so I could get my contacts (because I am totally blind) and some groceries that Jason and I were in serious need of. 
Grandmas are the sweetest, most caring, giving people I have ever known. They always seem to want to do something for their grandkids and my grandma's sure do everything they can for theirs.